Tuesday, August 18, 2015

The Four-Month Challenge

If there is one thing all people who knew me as a child always say is: "you were such a smiley and happy child growing up". My parents will go further to say "you have changed so much, what happened?" Of course my response to them is always: life.

Life happened. Friendships in the US were, for me, the makings of years of traumas, insecurities, and trust issues. They were my nightmares - cliques, drama, gossip, etc. - and with time the happy disposition of a child unbattered by the world disappeared.

But the older I have gotten, and the more I learn about the universe (both its good and bad sides) I come to understand the importance of life. For years I was merely surviving middle school, high school, and then college. I was getting by with the assumption that surely the next stage in my life would be miraculously better. But it wasn't. And not because life simply gets more miserable; but because my attitude towards the universe solely revolved around the fact that "today sucks" and somehow it will get better. My actions, as you may imagine, were not of an individual hellbent on making the next day amazing and more cheerful. I relied on the crutch of my suffering to excuse my negativity, my overconsumption of food, and at times my self-destructive actions.

So here is my challenge:

I turned 23 almost a month ago. And I have decided to actually enjoy and live my life. I won't concern myself with what others thing of me, or what I think I am supposed to do. Instead, I will go out and experience more of the world. I will commit to being less skeptical; I will enjoy moving my body and loving my skin. And I will teach myself that life can be good again. 

The challenge begins August 18th, 2015 and ends December 18th, 2015. Just before the holidays!

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